Anxiety and Water

People who know me well, are aware that I am a very anxious introvert.  That comes from the way I was raised, I suppose.  Anxiety for no real reason.  It is just there.  Most people experience anxiety about their appearance, public speaking, or impending danger, or the unknown.  That's just not me, though.  I actually feel quite comfortable with all of those things.  My anxiety is self-generated.

But.  I found the cure many years ago. Water.  Swimming.  I feel powerful, graceful, and secure in the water. I feel absolutely safe.  That is why the idea of swimming the Mackinac Straits does not make me feel anxious in any way.  I've been warned.  I have been told about the dangers...the currents...the shipping lane, and the unpredictability of those waters.  When I told my Mother I was going to do this before she died, she laughed and said: "I believe you will, Julie."

Other types of exercise don't bring the same feelings of peace, and power.  Not to me.  I tried long-distance running.  I sucked at that.  Riding my horse was a wonderful thing...a bonding experience....and the feeling of a very deep connection with another being.  But it is not the same.

On off days, or lifting days, I have difficulty concentrating...or even being around people.
i withdraw a lot.

Swimming.  There is no better drug.  No greater joy.

At least not for me.