I am feeling so down at the moment. Nothing in my life seems to be working. I feel a deep sense of sadness and regret over the way my life has turned out. I try SO hard to be amenable, agreeable, and kind to everyone I meet...except myself. This blog, for instance....is like a voice in the darkness. No one is out there. I am not being heard. There is so much anger and cruelty in this country...this world...at the moment, I am simply over-whelmed. I want, quite simply, to love and be loved....by someone other than my dog and my horse. At this moment, I have no idea where I will be living next spring. Financially, I am living from hand-to-mouth. I am sitting on the edge of homelessness. I live in hopelessness.